Saturday, April 30, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

oh dearest parents

come back puhleasseeeeeee??????????

pretty please?

+ > the glamour babe posted at 3:09 AM < +

Thursday, April 28, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

so u think triumph is for lingerie only?

orang kaya.....

+ > the glamour babe posted at 1:03 AM < +

Sunday, April 24, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

still down and out

its been a hundred days since mami chose to leave us... esp her family..... we still think about her alot. and i still wonder what made her make that decision. we pray that she'll be accepted by Him. u can juz lose a loved one juz like that u know.

Alhamdulilah, parents are safely back at home in sunny island at the moment. i miss them terribly. i avoid going out of my room now coz it seems so empty without them. empty and quiet and cold. i was overwhelmed wit sadness when i woke up in the morning to the empty apartment. its small for the 3 (and sometimes 4) of us but it was home alrite. now?....... i dunno... november is so far away.

anyways.. thanx to the gurls in unit 1 for their hospitality when my parents were here... and for the dinner juz now. appreciate it! maceh many many yeah!

btw... my last paper is on the 11th june. thinkin of visiting anybody?

+ > the glamour babe posted at 7:32 PM < +

down

and out.

sent parents off.... because of the trackworks done, the train we were suppossed to be on left us. and parents made in right on time. if we were to arrive a second later, they would've closed the check in service already.

came back to a quiet, cold and empty house.

wearing dad's sweater and drinkin mum's home made plum juice.

i want them back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:29 AM < +

Monday, April 18, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

what it takes to be me

i KNOW i am a maknenek..... but only in terms of 'melawa', fashion and make-up. yes, i am proud of that. i alos know where i stand in the 'beauty' scale la. just that i am always perasan-ing to have a higher level of self confidence. heh! i am also glad that i have friends that have always been there for me, be it physically or emotionally (since i'm so far away). i do NOT take sides..... soufi (my fashion maknenek lover. heh) said that i'll never takes sides even when the facts are obvious. i have reasons why.

because i know that when ppl kiss and make up, nothin else mattered. and if i had taken sides, i'll be the bad guy all along. its also because i know that when things don't go so well between some ppl, they started out on the wrong foot.

there are nice sides to each and everyone in this world. even hitler was a very gentle person with his direct contacts. he has his mum's freakin photo on his table for goodness sake. when people make comments, well...... MAYBE they wanna be acquaintances? yes, the possibility to be crude and sarcastic is always there. but what if the nature of that person IS like that? my father is so freakin sarcastic and ........ errmmm..... kinda rude at times. but i have learnt to accept him as who he is. i don't have to stoop to other ppls' level to get even. believe me, i won't stoop so low just to satisfy myself.

i don't like to be judge, neither do i judge. i know that judgemental idiots don't like me for me being myself. and i really appreciate people who don't judge me (and that's not many i tell you). so what if i have 'unusual' characteristics? i don't hurt anyone. i don't bother anyone at all... once i leave, i'm gone.

i hate naggings. i hate to nag and to be nagged at. if u have a problem with me, just tell me straight in the face, not dig up my entire past, bend the facts and suit it to ur topic of nagging. and it'll be WORSE if u nag at me when i'm tired and when i'm right. only typical uneducated 'makciks' can nag (and that's MY opinion thankyou very much).

what do i think of judgemental idiots? i'd say they're not well exposed to the world. they live in their own pathetic shell that they consider 'the world' and they BELIEVE that everybody should do the things they do and act the way they act. judgemental idiots think that everybody should think the way they do as well. sadly, everybody has their own opinions and i'd say everybody is right in their own way. so why judge? don't judge. its not good. you'll end up lookin like a blardy fool.

ps: to my two friends, my opinion is that u guys started out on the wrong foot. but that's JUST my opinion.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 5:55 PM < +

Friday, April 15, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

the day my parents came

mmmmm mmmmmm... yuhhhhh-mieee.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:20 AM < +

my chocolate hunk became

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:19 AM < +

the fairy gay-father

nuff said.
now, i wanna reply sub's sms. replied to u (sub) but it wasn't clear enuff for me. well... u asked me whether i cured the sickness of missing my parents or not rite? well.... haven't been missing them much in the 1st place coz i juz think its way better for us to live a distance away fom each other to appreciate our relationship as a family. in fact, their visit has made me miss home (as in the places in s'pore) and my darling friends EVEM MORE. everyday i wake up, i expect to wake up on the living room couch in BEDOK. instead, i wake up on my mattress, rushing for classes. *looong sigh*
btw, i'm not speakin to mum as she's ignoring me. she started to nag on my low rise jeans as she saw my butt crack at home, aft sch. i was so tired that time coz i bought alot of stuff frm sch and walked back home (that's far coz i actually felt tired okay). i wanted to lie down and before i could lay my big butts down on the floor completely, she started nagging. everybody should noe that tired julianah means zilch tolerance julianah. so i said, "ADER AJER LA!", lifted my heavy butts off the floor and slammed the door to my room and rotted my self in there (okay, i did my presentation stuff instead). den! to add salt to the wound, dad n monster (bro) sorta backed me up. well... it was at home! she sit nampak seluar dalam semer at home can..... i cannot flash a bit of skin on my way to lie down? at my own place summore. i juz hate it when i can't be myself if there's ppl like mum. so what? if i get my own flat later, i muz live according to her tolerance level? the tolerance level of ancient times? what? she doesn't undress when she showers izzit?

aft that, some stoopid misunderstanding between monster and dad. dad wants to go home earlier coz his knee was really giving him a problem.... monster got pissed for nothin and was so freakin rude to dad. doesn't he know that he won't be here if not for dad? he won't be anywhere without dad. he can't even buy his own underwear without dad's money okay.... i hate him. who does he think he is? i didn't even ask him to stay at my place and he's here till now. complaining that he has alot of work to do but what the hell is he doin here?

seriously, i welcome all appreciative ppl to my place juz as ong as u have manners and u don't mess my daily routine. if u wanna be safe, come when i'm having my end of session break. this, i PROMISE u, i'll be the nicest person on earth with the HIGHEST tolerance level (but make sure i'm not tired la). heh!

apart from that, life has been hectic. planned to bring parent to eat chinese in sydney tmr but idiotic monster don't want to. since he's not going, mum ain't going either. so its juz dad n me. i tell you, he is one fuckin selfish person in the whole wide world. i'll pity his other half. but if i recommend you to him (as in to my girls friends) , i don't like you and i don't care abt you. i hafta complete my assignment (major one) during the days where parents are off to newcaslte (mon-thurs) and he demands that i can juz meet them in sydney then. not only that my assignment is in jeorpady, parents would be VERY tired with the drive as well. all he wants is for him to travel easy in a car. oh Almighty, please make monster a less selfish person... if nt, erase him from the face of the earth as it'll spare parents ALOT of sore muscles, aching bones and heartache. heehee! (no, i'm not praying for jis death. i'm prayint that he'll go totally independent from this family coz all we have ever had from him was plain difficulty). okay, i've let my mind uot, my feelings and my thoughts. parents might noy think of the same way like i do of monster but i'm pretty sure they like me better (only when i'm nice. heh!).

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:18 AM < +

Friday, April 08, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

politics, molitics.

the world is full of judgemental idiots no matter how old people are. once judgemental, always judgemental. oh well.... judge and BE judged.
now what about assumptions? i don't care if u wanna assume really, but juz don't make an ass out of u AND me. make an ass out of yourself only thankyou very much.

recently, i found out that a certain someone dislikes me.... but i don't think we've ever hung out with each oth before... or have we? when? i'm sorry, i can't remember. i kan superstar... ramai yang suka i, ramai juga yang tak suka i. its juz part and parcel of being a diva (am i right my dearest fans?). hah!

and i am EASILY misunderstood. esp in the computer realm. and that is why i'd rather talk on the phone than juz leave everybody or anybody a message (i shall not quote any examples, juz trust me on this).

recently (at the moment rather), quite a few politik molitic stuff have been popping up in this kampong. i came here to be with as little politics from my people but i end up being right in the middle. sigh.... but juz to let everyone know, malays will never die ppl!the words (okay, a bit modifeid i admit) of the legendary Hang Tuah. but will the so called 'Malay stereotyping sickness' ever come to an end? i juz hate it when ppl talk about some ppl that they're unhappy abt to the whole world yet simply refuse to talk to the person in the face. come on, talkin things out (nicely) do repair rifts okay. why do you think that the war in Iraq is still going on? coz it was a full on war right from the start la. and bombarding others without the guts to tell people who you really are. why is it that many people just refuse to convert their negative energy to positive energy? make love, not war. even our Prophet (pbuh) said that conferencing (or discussing) helps. i jus don't geddit most of the times.

well... parents would be here in less than 24 hours time. pls pray for me that my kway teow goreng kerang passes through the immigration here without a glitch. i'm really missing it! and to update... MMS wants to try commuting frm her home to sch everyday so parents can stay over with me (sweet rite? i knoe). but! heh! ader catch la. if she really can't take it, parents will still have to get a motel or smth. can't really blame anyone here. last minute decisions don't result in perfect persecution at all times. no pointing fingers here okay!

speakin of MMS.... i feel really guilty! accompanied her to go drinking. no, i drank unadulterated coke only (on her coz i accompanied her. heh! aku makan duit ozzie government! hah!). as we were walkin into the club (wollongong tennis club, not the party club.. i was still in my pilates outfit mind you), i felt extra guilty already. so i gave her a friendly reminder that her prayers won't be accepted for 40 days and its harammmmmmm (pronounced lebanese style) with a cheeky smile. well... i can't tell her that i won't allow her to drink rite? and its time that we hang out already coz we've been cooped up in our rooms for the longest time. she wit her chemistry and me wit you ppl knoe wud la. it was juz nice talkin. oh! slenger story!!!!!! hahahaha! this time, its MMS, not me.
she drank like 1litre of coke mixed wit scotch. by the time we reached home, MMS tripped on a branch a couple of times, smoked at the wrong end of the ciggie and we laughed like two drunkards (when there's only one). and the ciggie? she couldn't even feel the burn in her lips and tongue coz, as what she said, "i'm so numbed by the drinks man!"
pls pray for her ppl... pray that she is directed to the PROPER right path and that she gains weight. its frightening to see ppl her size trip u noe. really scary!

ps:dad read my previous entry! heh! and sis said he laughed. i hope there's nothin to worry about! hee! and! didn't manage to bump into my knight in orange shirt today. hmm... i think i must make it a point to come for CHRIS' tuts 45 blardy minutes early. heehee! okay, okay... that's psycho already. see la... watchin bride and prejudice makes me hope that my white knight will come sweeping me off my feet someday. (hah! someday till i'm old and wrinkled pon tetap takder jugak lah!).

+ > the glamour babe posted at 2:53 AM < +

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

juz another slenger story

went to bed an angry person last nite... well... disappointed as well la. i even missed my Subuh (feelin guilty here). den, i accepted the fact that these ppl will be here and there's no point in producing negative energy. so i converted my negative energy to positive energy and am startin to look for a cheap motel for parents during the weekdays. MMS did offer to go home juz now but i tot.... naaahhhh. its okay. i knoe it'll be uncomfortable to have a strange man in your house... juz that the reason was VERY VERY lame to me. 'not in my culture' poof! aper ajer! well anyways! heh! another slenger story that *juz* made my day. hee!

plannin to wake up at 5am but woke up at 0920 instead. the 1st thing i said when i woke up was 'uh oh' (bukan nak baca doa eh! terok betol aku). i had tut with CHRIS at 0930. so you could juz imagine how kanchiong i was la...
cute tutor + bachin tutee = not good.
and yes, today was the 2nd time i went to sch without my morning mandi bunga (the previous time was his class as well!). but i had time to spray myself wit moonflower eu de toilet (hahahahahahaha!). lemme juz cut my story short.

I REACHED SCHOOL ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT IT WAS ONLY 0845.
kuaaakuaakuaa....

but!
did i tell u guys i participated in a research for this CUTE guy yesterday morning? the name's alex (takin masters in clinical psyc- my FAV subject and i do plan to persue that kalau ader rezeki, Insya'Allah!). *beaming*blushing* heehee! flirt flirt a little bit la.... *sheepish grin* and my effortless 'act' was reciprocated. (i shall not go into details coz my sis is teaching my dad how to read my blog). so this morning, like blardy fool, i sat ON THE FLOOR, OUTSIDE MY CLASS WHILE WAITING FOR CHRIS (like waiting for my prince in shining armour like that la). SKALI! ANOTHER knight in shining armour came! (okay, more like my knight in orange shirt). heehee! guess who!!!!!!!!!! yeah, yeah.... alex! heehee! *beaming*beaming* i said hi and gave him my 'mengancam' smile (one that my freinds say they feel like puking when they see it esp sab). he also said hi and went somewhere la, dunno where. with nothin to do, i started reading my notes. and den! i heard footsteps! i didn't look up la, study mah! heh!

with the most sympathetically friendly + cheeky voice "you're studying on the floor?"
guess who! guess who! ah ah! my knight in orange shirt lagi! haaaa! by that time, the cat (okay, lion) got my tongue and digested it already la. heheheheh! and what did i do?

AKU SENGEH AJER LA......

said some oth stuff but i had no tongue already (the lion got it remember?). i gave him one word reply for all that he said and asked. sheesh! you dork julianah!

to my dearest taggers.
y@tz: hahahaha! i noe that trick! haha! macam cerita shutters kan! suddenly sab's head in the pic. (head only. haa!)
snazzy: reaching here this friday. now lookin for a place for them for 2 weeks. koyak lah aku. haa!
masyita: eh! if i'm really bored... I'LL VISIT U IN JUNE OKAY? heheheh! i still love melbourne!

ps: juz got a call frm parents. mum really isn't helping. i'm so filled up with tests and assignments and she keep askin bout what i already told them. sheesh! no topic den don't talk la! make me stressed u know! aiyah!
and oh! MMS juz fed me wit toast, egg and bacon-like meat. right after i took a bite, she went, " by the way, the meat's not halal!" and when i spat it out, she started laughing. she got me there peeps! it IS halal. bachin punyer orang!haa!
and! farhana is a pighead! muahahahahahahaha! (oaky, private joke la. but still funny).

+ > the glamour babe posted at 11:54 PM < +

happiness shortlived

by a strange 'culture'

here's the thing. parents are coming over (yeah, a sudden decision). i'm ecstatic, not juz happy coz my dad is coming (omg!). i was planning to fit them in my room (yes its spacious enough for 3) but my labanese housemate says her culture doesn't permit her to stay under one roof with a man not her muhrim. i am seriously fine with that fact... just that her actions doesn't justify the 'culture' requirement.

i agree with the fact that its not advisable by the religion for females to stay with males if we're not related... don't get me wrong. here's the ?questionmark? i have in my head.
1. u speak like u're a 'liberal' and believes in equality (okay, i do too).
2. u say vulgarities to your MOTHER in her face
3. u wear scantily outfits in front of 'religious' men and don't feel the slightest bit ashamed.
4. you eat any meat u like with just saying Bismillah and assumes that it becomes 'halal' automatically. basically, you eat anyhow la.
5.you don't mind visits by the opposite sex in your house in the day.
6. you argue that wearing the hijab makes you more of a conservative.

so why the keep the 'conservative' culture?

when she said that she wouldn't feel comfortable, i initially understood. but when i thought over it again.... well..... its really contradicting to me. you stay in your room almost all the time anyway. and i'm sure my dad won't bother you AT ALL. you're away from the house if you're not in your room...

sigh.... looks like i've to search for some motels for my parents la.

disclaimer: these are just MY thoughts. MY opinions. all MINE.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 1:20 AM < +

Sunday, April 03, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

while i'm stuck in the land of the ignorants

senget and her new love of her life. hahahahahahah! keep up in perasan-ing! go perasans! haa!


dis woman here is off for affirmation ceremony, menggatal-ing wit any officers or specialists she can get her mouth on. hahahaha! aiyah! sab! i miss our ncc days! haa! camps and playing hide and seek. having crushes on the guys coz we've simply nothin else to do. stripping the m-16 and laughing at HARTINI'S perasan escapades! hahahahaahaha! remember bedok camp in sec 1? oh gosh! and the many friends we made... our ledang trip... all those times are nothing but memories now... memories that i sooo cherish.

errmmm.... does anyone think i'm nostalgic rite now? i sure am! haa! reminded of all our 'adventures' in ncc when she (sab) sms-ed me last night tellin me that she's going for the affirmation thingy today (today rite?). and i'm stuck here, forced to finfish 4 chapters for my bio and personality tests tuesday and thursday. and i still hafta finish my research! shit! okay.. i need help on this coz i hafta collect a data and collate it and hand it in for my stats activity. here's the question;
RATE THE DEGREE TO WHICH YOU BELIEVE THAT PRINCE CHARLES IS RELEVANT TO AUSTRALIAN POLITICAL LIFE. RATE FROM 1 TO 5, where 0 is "not at all" and 5 is "extremely relevant".
drop me a tag! ur participation would be GREATLY appreciated! maceh banyak2 in advance! tankiuk!

+ > the glamour babe posted at 4:44 PM < +

Saturday, April 02, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

i wasted my day

and now i'm worried sick if i don't do well for my assignments. no... this is not being kiasu.. this is being caught up in tonnes of work. over halfway done wit LKY (or harry) and i need to study for bio and personality tests this coming week. i've NEVER been so studious in my entire life, even while studying for my 'A's in '02. many many more assignments coming up and i don't think i'll have anymore freetime till the semester ends. even then, i'll be worried sick about my results. i'm being realistic now... i can achieve credits and thats all i can do. if i do better, good. if not, i juz hope i pass (AT LEAST!).

spent the day wit the ever bored neighbour frm unit 1, farhana. ate roasted chicken and chips. gosh! i hope i'm not gaining weight!!!!!! i've set my mind to go for pilates twice a week now. it'll be good for my back and my mind. heh! for the moment, the basic theory thes can wait. heh! that woman is still on my nerves. sheesh! i dod some research on my muscle relaxants and found out that it'll work in the cns (central nervour system) to act like pain killers on the musculoskeletal (i hope this is right! heh!) area. okay.... that made me chuck away the pills further into the cupboard... work in my cns? no thankyou! i'll juz go for my pilates. heh!

called a very troubled friend juz now. gosh i miss my friends so! i juz want to be there for them when they're facing difficulties u noe? esp when they've no one else but you... and u juz can't be there. oh well...... juz till the end of next year! heh!

speaking of which.... should i come back? should i continue my 4th year (but i have to qualify 1st la)? should i stop burdening dad and juz go to work? but what can i do wit my cert? i can't practice as a professional, i don't know what to do with the 2nd major (takin it up coz its free and i did well previously)..... i have a plan but we'll see how it goes. i have to finish the 1st stage of my career plan 1st right?

oh! speaking of which! i received a call from my 'fav' aunt here.. she wanted me to dye her hair.... hhmmmm..... i wonder how many fellow citizens she asked 1st before she called me. heheh! at 0830 pulak tu! and SOMEHOW, she knew that i had a friend bunking over. i tell you... as big as this country is, news spread like wild fire okay...

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:55 AM < +

Friday, April 01, 2005

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

can't help it

i JUZ read my uni mail (i don't check it often, obviously) and wud a lovely surprise! heh! introducing the latest edition of the late ibrahim (my late grandpa) clan; AMIRUL HAKIMI. heh! tak dapat datang, tengok pon jadi la....... i MUST say, he's lookin like his twin uncles! heheheh!

+ > the glamour babe posted at 2:52 AM < +

amirul hakimi

+ > the glamour babe posted at 2:52 AM < +

cana't be bothered to edit

so that's why 3 entries in a day. heh! oh well.... having a guest in the house wasn't that bad but i juz couldn't get much work done. i juz don't like it when someone i'm not close to juz makes my place theirs. hey... if u help me clean the house and contribute to my household expenses, i don't mind at all. but if u don't pls ask me if u wann do anyhting with MY stuff. a'ait!?

nieway! i SWEAR! i BELIEVE tt ozzies are BUNCH OF IGNORANT MOTHERFUCKERS! i applied for my basic theory test the other day.
~i have E-VISA. so there's no stamp or letter on the passport. and she told me that she can't check it coz they (the ozie transport authority) didn't hav a way to check. how idiotic... the morons. if cannot chEck den don't introduce online stuff la. bodoh! she even asked her freakin supervisor if they can accept my application form to scare me! omg! i was starring daggers, pistols, machine guns and knife at her already. u gonna make me scared for being honest? pistol betol! she said they have no way to be sure if i am a 'legal' student or not coz i don't have my proof (visa). I HAD MY FREAKIN STUDENT CARD FOR THE YEAR 2005 U ASSHOLE! HOW ILLEGAL CAN I GET!? to make things difficult, she said i don't even have an ozie immigration stamp for entering or leaving the country. she made a fool of herself obviously. i told her that i do have the stamp, juz that she didn't look for it properly. i think that made her pissed coz i was right and she was wrong. well... she found the stamp indeed! stoopid woman!
~ and when i filled up my form, i didn't put in my 'binte' coz its more of a title than a name to me. so this bitch of a customer service person told me off. she doesn't know about our 'bin & binte' system works obviously. she insisted that i HAVE to put all my name. so.. okay, fine (bitch), my fault this time. she pointed out to me that my student id had my full name so i should put my full name on the license when i get one as well.
~she asked for a prove of address and i gave my bank letter. (she couldn't find any fault with me with that).
~den! (this wraps the show) she asked me to pay. i gave my eftpos card (atm for us singaporeans). on that card, my name was only Julianah Jamal. u know wud she said? "no i can't accept that. there's inconsistencies in the name". i tell you! i wanted to cry! i wanted to scream at her! i wanted to strangle her already! not only was she rude, she spoke to me in a manner that suggested i had difficulty in understanding english! (and WE'RE the ones having grammar and phoenic lessons in school!!!!!!!!!!!!!). so i told her that the names in the bank cards don't matter, its the number and the signature that's important. i even showed her the freakin bank letters and told her to check my account number on the card and the letter AND SHE STILL INSISTED THAT SHE COULDN'T USE IT. "this is australia miss. your name is very important here" well what if two people have the same freakin name (u stoopid bitch!). i even showed her my debit and sub-cards provin to her that its the account number and the signature that's important. and she tried to scare me again! "i will have to show my supervisor this and we'll see what he says". this time, my voice loud already la...... i think most ppl could hear me by then. my reply to her when she tried to scare me wit her supervisor, " YES PLEASE! BY ALL MEANS! I WANT TO SEE HIM TOO" but the bitch went inside some office and came out a minnit later tellin me that her 'supervisor' would accept it this time. her colleagues were already lookin at me by then. i dunno what their look was tellin me la..... out of pity, or admiration for tellin her what she needed to know or the 'not another victim' look. i don't care already by then. its ur stoopid system. blame it on ur stoopid government, not on technology. she insisted that i MUST change my name in on the bank card. she threatened to call the bank to report the inconsistency in the name and i said they won't care about the name, its the account number that they need. if u wanna call, go ahead. since the 'supervisor' allowed it that time (only), she won't call. she kept telling me that i hafta change the card. this time, i did it dolna style. i juz stared at her blankly. my back was killing me (the only thing on my mind was my prescribed morphine tablets), i was standing too long and i juz couldn't be bothered. if she wanted to look like an arse, i wasn't gonna join her. i didn't say anything when she instructed me to go and take the test. i juz shut the fuck up. (and of course, i gave her my killer jeling). nasib baik tak juling kau!
~i took the test next to man and we obviously cheated la! asked each other how to do.

in the end, BOTH OF US FAILED.

peace out everybody. have a good weekend.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:28 AM < +

mt. keira frm door & window.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:18 AM < +

bubye charlene. pic taken on mount kiera.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 12:07 AM < +